Earlier!

Okay so one of my blogs titled "Seriously>.< F you too" was about how my grandma continues to make my life a living hell. Well in that blog, i had gotten on the topic that i had moved out of my parents house to live with Derek. Hmm you may think that its a stupid move, or "know", yes i put it in quotes because of the people that think they know everything. Well, living with Derek and his family has actually helped me alot more to move along with my life. I love Derek so much and really care about him, and i definitely see him and I having a future together.

I am thinking about going into the military, and i am supported 100% where i'm living now, where as when i'm with my family, they are always doubting me. Dont know about you, but i cant live with family that think i'm not able to do anything on my own. Some of you may know that i also have a ring on my left hand.. and yes, Derek and I are engaged. Call us stupid or whatever, but i'm not planing to leave Cortland County anytime soon, and this town is full of idiot people that arent worth my time, but marrying Derek makes all the difference. I dont care if people say that i have my "whole" life to find someone, well i didnt need to look my whole life, and who would want to take the time to find someone capaitable when that person has been next to you the whole time. =) Derek and I are still planning to go to college, and save money to find an apartment together. So dont be too quick to judge that its 'stupid' to marry so young. One day, Derek and I will be sitting on our porch, old as hell, smiling because people wont believe that we made it for so long, and that my friends is what love really is. As for our tatoos, yeah getting each others name was a little impulsive and maybe a little dumb, but its only stupid if you know you'll regret it later. Me? nah.. if it happens to be that me and Derek dont end up an old couple on our porch, i'll still look at my tatoo and smile because he changed my life in such a good way and hes worth remembering when i'm old and gray, =)

*Bug*

Would I dare recommend this?!?

This book is most definitely worth reading. It captures the reader from the very beginning. Personally i hope that there are more books made like this trilogy. I'm pretty sick of the vampire stuff. But anyways, its definitely different than your everyday sparkly vampires and messed up romances.

Blood Rose would be a great read for anyone who likes constant action and mythical creatures like flaming wolves. I forgot the name of them in the book, but they are what created the Guardians. Although it is sometimes hard to keep the characters straight because so many are introduced to the trilogy, but still eye catching anyway.

Whats better about this series is that it keeps you on your toes. Its not like an average action packed movie where you know whats going to happen next, there are twists through out the whole book. On a scale of 1-10 i would rate this an 8.5, yes its an amazing read, but i have read better books, but that's because i am biased about what i read. So if you're sick of the vampire stuff and predicting movies all the time, i suggest you read this book!

Book Review

So its taken me a while to finish Blood Rose. But i made it through it. There isn't a part in this trilogy that is boring, and i think that's why once i start reading it, its hard to put it down. The first two books are definitely a montage of foreshadowing about this last one. The first book is called Nightshade, and the second book is called Wolfsbane. Blood Rose starts off with Calla rescuing Ren from a bad decision, but you already know that from earlier blogs.

Blood Rose has a very different way of portraying animals and their instincts, the animals being the wolves. Wolves are natural pack animals and fight together. Two packs don't combine in reality, because there would be two alphas. Alphas fight for the upper hand and will fight to the death for dominance and leadership. In this book, the two alpha packs have been mixed, but not exactly combined. The wolves have joined forces with the searchers because they had been lied to all their life about who were the real enemies. The wolves being called the Guardians because there purpose was to guard from enemies and run boarder patrol. Calla plays an interesting role in this book because she plays a role model for other guardians and is greatly admired by the Searchers.


The overall theme here would be courage, honesty, and trust. Shay being another guardian, and also the Scion who is the most important to defeating the Keepers. He must defeat the leader of the Keepers and save his parents from the hold that the Keepers have on the guardians. Not only that but he must go on quests to find pieces of the Elemental Cross. The Elemental Cross are a pair of blades that can only be held by the Scion.
It takes courage to face some of these dangerous quests, honesty to be able to communicate with one another, and trust to be able to put your life into a sworn enemies hands.  

Plot Summary

So to go further into detail about how great this book actually is i'm not going to give away too much until i write the review next. Its a huge battle between Guardians, Keepers, and Searchers. Once under the Keeper's eyes, the Nightshade pack, lead by Calla turned against them, and joined forces with the Searchers. In order to conqure this battle, the guardians must help the Searchers obtain the Scion's weapons. Without the swords, the keepers and their dark creatures called wraiths cannot be defeated. Scion being Shay, who is in love with Calla is also a guardian, and a searcher. Ren being the alpha of the Bane pack is meant to continue his back by an arranged marriage with Calla, so the link thats still there has Calla in a rut about who she cares for the most. How are the guardians and the searchers going to win this battle if they cant keep their emotions in tact. And yes, there will be casualties.

BloodRose

Okay, so intead of doing couple chapter incriments, im just going to put it all in one blog before i have to put the final plot summary up. ive been working my way through the book, and i find the book really interesting. After Calla persuades Ren to go with her to the Searchers Acadamey, all hell breaks loose between Shay and Ren. After getting the situation under control and explaining why Ren is there, they start forming plans to capture the next piece of the sword. After successfully capturing it. Calla leaves to clear her head about the situation with her, Ren, and Shay. Well i really dont give a crap about that part because im just in a bad mood today. But yeah she sleeps with Shay and makes out with Ren in the co-ed showers.. bleeh. Now Calla has to try to get Ren and Shay to work together to retrieve the last sword. Two alpha males in the same pack... Hmm never usually works..

Seriously>.< F you too!

Ok i had started writing about my outside reading, saved it and logged off... and now its gone again... WTF!? ugh. Today is not my day. But then again i'm having way too many bad days lately. My grandma fucked this day up. Yes people, i hate my grandma. Why dont you meet her and see why! Its a very long story and maybe blogging about it will help relieve some of this pent up anger, but.. idk maybe not.
My grandma ADORES my ex boyfriend. Like.. replaced me for him pretty much. See anything wrong with this yet?? His name is Zeke... i almost said was cause i have literally wished him dead sometimes.. My grandma and i used to be very close until i decided that Zeke needed to go. Yea.. well.. Thats when Derek came along. There wasnt any other guy in this school that could make me think about dating in high school again until i met Derek.. Well... When i had told Zeke, he refused to believe i was dumping him, and would literally tell me that i will not dump him.. Seriously? He was fucked up in the head. So my grandma would always say that i had to do it in person.. which i really dont care, its respectable to say it to a persons face. but when i'm afraid to get near Zeke, wouldnt that put alarms up for my grandma? Nope.

 So i told her i was going to take someone with me.. she told me i better not take Derek, what do i do? i take Derek, and i'm still glad i did. But Zeke wasnt, and he ended up calling my grandmother, and thats when i got my truck taken away. And thats when she immediately hated Derek, and still hates him. Well, about the time that school started, Derek and I became officially engaged, and talked about me moving in with him. Which i'll explain later. Well, around my 18th birthday, we had it set for October 22. So when that date rolled around, i packed my stuff and i left. My mom is still hurt, but i love my mom and i still go see her, and i am concerned about her. But when my effing grandmother E-mails me, to emotionally blackmail me, thats unacceptable. She has been doing this since i moved in with Derek, i dont regret it because it has been better for me, and i have been in contact with my mom. Just because i moved out, doesnt mean that i did it to hurt my family. But my grandmother sent me an e-mail today saying that i need to grow up and stop thinking about myself. She had the backbone to tell me that i never cared about my mom and that i'll never amount to anything. Really? whos older here? I have put up with my grandma too long, and when everyones telling me not to turn my back on my grandma..THIS happens... No.. i'm done. Laters blog will be about Derek and I. Because i know you peoples are curious.  ='( sometimes i just want to give up and agree with my grandma.

BloodRose

BloodRose is the book that i'm reading and its part of a trilogy. I love these kind books because of the action/romance =) Chapters 1-3 were all about Cala, an alpha wolf finding Ren, who was suppose to be her mate and join forces to defeat the Keepers. While Cala is off finding Ren, her boyfriend Shay doesnt know whats about to happen and when he sees Ren he gets defensive... oh did i mention, Calla kinda whores around in this book with both Ren and Shay. Yeah, not suprising. Well, anyway. As soon as Calla and Ren are back in the territory of the seachers, a plan goes into affect to get the Scions swords..the Scion being Shay. I like the fact that they all work together despite their differences. Calla and Ren grew up thinking that the searchers were their enemies when in fact they were tricked all along.. (dun-dun-dunn)=P
I'm almost done with the book, i just have to finish off a couple chapters and i'll put more on here about the rest of the book =D.

WolfBane Series

Okay, so i'm really excited that Spalding approved of this outside reading book... but is actually a trilogy. Its not your average wolves and other creatures kind of book. This series has three main groups of people. The Searchers, the Guardians, and the Keepers. The Keepers are people who have stolen two powerful swords from the Searchers, and tricked the Guardians into fighting the Searchers, now when i say tricked, i mean that the Searchers and Guardians are meant to fight together not against each other. This girl named Calla, isnt exactly thrilled with having her life planned out for her, but as a guardian, shes meant to fight and protect her pack. All until she meets Shay. Calla saved him from being attacked by a bear and later finds out that he is now attending her school... which is kept under survalliance(spelling??) by the keepers. Well, she ends up having a connection to him, even when she finds out hes a searher. Well, she is suppose to marry Ren, who is alpha of the Bane pack. While she is alpha of the Nightshades, but shes not exactly sure if she wants to marry a manhoe like him. Well... lets shorten this up a bit.. Calla is ordered to watch over Shay so that nothign happens to him, and ends up turning him into a guardian when a life threatening encounter happens. Thats when Shay finds a piece of the missing swords, and is the only one able to hold the piece. Hmm.. ill leave more details for another blog =)

Yes!!... I know... Depressing.

To explain the poem following this, i would just like to explain that my family has a history of depression and anxiety. My mother having a case of situational depression, and my grandmother, as ecentric as she is, has high level anxiety. Well.. guess whos the lucky one and gets the dominate genes.. yep me. I have many anxieties of everyday life, and high level of depression. It's not something i'm ashamed of, and i dont believe anyone like me should be ashamed of it. So whenever i feel down.. i write depressing poems to express to other people how i'm feeling in a context that i can show people. So well... here it is..

         Pain comes to me naturally..
         everyone around me causes pain,
         Like knives stabbing me in every direction,
         Everytime they walk by, they kick the breathe out of me...

         Too late to shield myself from it,
        I walk head on into the suffering,
        Suffocation is familiar, and almost comforting.
        Little by little, parts of me are disappearing,
        I feel the darkness caving in on me.

        I can barely make it through the day,
        I cant escape the painful hold you have on me,
        Inhaling and exhaling the pain.
        I hate everything you do to me.

        You've never seen me at my weakest
        and you never will either.
        Tears will fall constantly, into the arms
        of the only person i can trust.
        Theres a choke hold around my heart..
        It'll always be painful as long as they're around.

The Lion King, duh!

   Yeah, my first post is about the lion king! Its my favorite movie of all time and will always be my favorite movie. And no, not just because of Tamone and Pumba, but because thats how i got my first nickname, Bugs. Yeah weird nickname, but it used to be lady bug, which was just down right embarassing!
     It started when i first watched the lion king, i looked up at my dad and I asked "Do lions really eat bugs? and are they really cream filled?" My dad said they didnt eat bugs, and i was disappointed because i really wanted a pet lion cub. Well, after i watched that movie i started seeing alot of lady bugs around the house, and i'd be so happy because i thought the lady bugs were from the movie, but sadly, i grew out of that phase lol. =)  Thats how i got the name lady bug, well... i grew outta that phase too. I became more of a tomboy and loved playin in the garage when my dad was working on cars, and i would pretend that i was working on a car too.. thats when my name changed to Bug.. and still love the nickname today =).
Oh, and i'm still watching the Lion King every chance i get. hehehe.
-Bug (=