To explain the poem following this, i would just like to explain that my family has a history of depression and anxiety. My mother having a case of situational depression, and my grandmother, as ecentric as she is, has high level anxiety. Well.. guess whos the lucky one and gets the dominate genes.. yep me. I have many anxieties of everyday life, and high level of depression. It's not something i'm ashamed of, and i dont believe anyone like me should be ashamed of it. So whenever i feel down.. i write depressing poems to express to other people how i'm feeling in a context that i can show people. So well... here it is..
Pain comes to me naturally..
everyone around me causes pain,
Like knives stabbing me in every direction,
Everytime they walk by, they kick the breathe out of me...
Too late to shield myself from it,
I walk head on into the suffering,
Suffocation is familiar, and almost comforting.
Little by little, parts of me are disappearing,
I feel the darkness caving in on me.
I can barely make it through the day,
I cant escape the painful hold you have on me,
Inhaling and exhaling the pain.
I hate everything you do to me.
You've never seen me at my weakest
and you never will either.
Tears will fall constantly, into the arms
of the only person i can trust.
Theres a choke hold around my heart..
It'll always be painful as long as they're around.
Great post, first of all! Very well written. I also have depression as you know haha and well i think it's great that you write poems to express yourself about it and everything. I listened to music it was very helpful. Sometimes going to counselors isn't the best way...sometimes we can get through it ourselves. I know i have :) I hope you get through this and know that I am always here for you!! All your frnds n family are! :D
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