Ok i had started writing about my outside reading, saved it and logged off... and now its gone again... WTF!? ugh. Today is not my day. But then again i'm having way too many bad days lately. My grandma fucked this day up. Yes people, i hate my grandma. Why dont you meet her and see why! Its a very long story and maybe blogging about it will help relieve some of this pent up anger, but.. idk maybe not.
My grandma ADORES my ex boyfriend. Like.. replaced me for him pretty much. See anything wrong with this yet?? His name is Zeke... i almost said was cause i have literally wished him dead sometimes.. My grandma and i used to be very close until i decided that Zeke needed to go. Yea.. well.. Thats when Derek came along. There wasnt any other guy in this school that could make me think about dating in high school again until i met Derek.. Well... When i had told Zeke, he refused to believe i was dumping him, and would literally tell me that i will not dump him.. Seriously? He was fucked up in the head. So my grandma would always say that i had to do it in person.. which i really dont care, its respectable to say it to a persons face. but when i'm afraid to get near Zeke, wouldnt that put alarms up for my grandma? Nope.
So i told her i was going to take someone with me.. she told me i better not take Derek, what do i do? i take Derek, and i'm still glad i did. But Zeke wasnt, and he ended up calling my grandmother, and thats when i got my truck taken away. And thats when she immediately hated Derek, and still hates him. Well, about the time that school started, Derek and I became officially engaged, and talked about me moving in with him. Which i'll explain later. Well, around my 18th birthday, we had it set for October 22. So when that date rolled around, i packed my stuff and i left. My mom is still hurt, but i love my mom and i still go see her, and i am concerned about her. But when my effing grandmother E-mails me, to emotionally blackmail me, thats unacceptable. She has been doing this since i moved in with Derek, i dont regret it because it has been better for me, and i have been in contact with my mom. Just because i moved out, doesnt mean that i did it to hurt my family. But my grandmother sent me an e-mail today saying that i need to grow up and stop thinking about myself. She had the backbone to tell me that i never cared about my mom and that i'll never amount to anything. Really? whos older here? I have put up with my grandma too long, and when everyones telling me not to turn my back on my grandma..THIS happens... No.. i'm done. Laters blog will be about Derek and I. Because i know you peoples are curious. ='( sometimes i just want to give up and agree with my grandma.
the first time i met ur grandma she was like angie do this n do that n if i said something wrong i got a look, she's always been a bit on the odd side lol. but you cant agree with ur gram. i mean you want to be the better person of the two and stand strong. you know what is right n what is wrong. if u didnt i'd be the one slappin sense into u, since i havent yet well obviously it aint wrong lol. i've stood behind the decsions you have made but dont let ur grandma get to u. if your happy, it's the right decision it's not hurting you or anyone around you extremely pyhsically or emotionally. you're gram has gone over the top with all this.
ReplyDeleteThanks Dewey, youre pretty much the only one that i go to about shit goin on in my life and sometimes i just dont get how family can be the one to hurt me the most. Ive always been different from my family and i'm finally doing something about it. I dont talk to my grandma anymore, and i dont think i'm inviting her to my graduation party because of this whole mess. Idc family is suppose to be there to support you, not to critisize and tell you what they think ya outta do. But my grandma is the exact opposite of what she needs to be.
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